Thoughts of the Night.....
Couldn't sleep, I have been thinking alot about those days. "Those days" means so many days, the day my bf broke up with me over another girl, the days when I was drinking alot and smoking alot, the days that I cried thinking about my ex-bf whenever I go pass places that reminds me about him, the days I suddenly felt so lonely and upset inside, the days that I am so tired and wished there is someone beside me to lend me his shoulder to rest for awhile, the bad days I have in office and that 1 special day......
Anyway DB, I have gotten over all those days except the shoulder to rest for awhile, the loneliness and bad days in office, nobody can run away from that, I believe that everyone is experiencing the same thing as me, I am not the only one.
DB, I am not sure if what I did that day was a right move, the problem is the msg I send was completely senseless. After sending it, then I realise that I did not phrase my sentence right. How stupid I can be right, DB??? Why is it always a failure?? At least I don't regret doing it, although feeling upset about it because it did not turn out the way I want DB but like what my friends said at least I did try.....
Anyhow, still the same sentence from me since the day my bf broke up with me, what is mine is mine....what is not mine will not be mine no matter how hard I try.....all I can do is wish them all the best in everything they do......
There has been alot of things going in and out of my head till sometimes I get bad headaches. I need to learn how to stop thinking of so much things at one time and relax myself.
I am still thinking about something.....not sure if I should do it....
(miss you, can I tell you??, thinking of you, can I tell you?)
hoping you can feel it..... :-(
Enough of thoughts of the night DB, its already 12.52am and I am still not sleepy.....
